Adventures in Cruiseland
Thursday, September 22, 2011
This just doesn't seem real ...
Sitting here on the couch with all of the family here, I still cannot believe my dad is gone. I miss seeing him on the couch, watching football. I miss hearing him shuffle down the hall. Life as I knew it before is over. My dad is no longer here. I am trying to stay strong for mom, but deep down inside I am broken. I just want to cry and am moments away from an emotional breakdown. But like I said, I have to stay strong for mom. I feel as though part of me is missing.Who is going to walk me down the isle when I get married? Who are my future kids going to call "papa" and play ball with? My dad was the one I turned to for help and advice. He coached me through softball and he coached me through life. I have learned so much from him. The only thing that is keeping me afloat, besides my family, is my faith. I know that yesterday was not the last time I'll see my dad. I know that right now he has been reunited with his parents and sharing all of the stories about us kids. I know that he is looking down, watching me, and knows how much I love and miss him. I know that he is with the spirits of my future children. All of that being said, I am still heartbroken. I can't do anything without thinking of him. I don't think I'll be able to step on a softball field for a long time. It will just be to hard to be there without dad there, carrying the bucket of balls behind me. My dad is such an amazing man! I miss you dad! I love you dad! I'll never forget you ...
We are holding an open house this Sunday, September 25, to celebrate the wonderful life of my dad. If you would like to come, we would love to have you. Message me or text me for the address.
A Special Man
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
The End is Near ...
Today has been a rough day for the family. The day started off with dad being transported to get chemo. When we got there, a miscommunication had been made and dad was to early for his chemo. He is not strong enough to be transported more than twice a day, so we were left waiting for his cancer to figure out what to do next. When the cancer doctor arrived, dad told him he was tired and couldn't fight anymore. Dad has been fighting this cancer so hard these past 8 weeks and his body just can't keep up with the demands of fighting such a tough cancer. After checking dad's lab work, the doctor told us that cancer treatments right now are not an option. While doing chemo or other such treatments would help shrink the cancer, the chances of completely getting all of it out were slim to none. Also, the chance of the cancer coming back was very. He also hinted that dad's cancer had spread. After finding out all of this, dad stuck with his decision to be put in a hospice ... and that is where we are today. All of our family that is in town was at the hospice tonight along with some very close friends of our family. A lot of tears have been shed today, but also some laughs as we remembered all of the good and funny moments we all shared with dad. While we do not know how much longer he has, we are cherishing these last few days we have with him. I am going to miss my dad more than I words can explain. I could not have asked for a better dad. He always pushed me to do my best with whatever endeavors I take on. He supported me in every decision I made. He always had our families best interest at heart. Although dad may no longer be with us soon, his spirit will continue on in the many people's lives that he has touched. He is a very special man and I am going to miss him dearly. Thank you for all of your love, support, and prayers. My family can definitely feel all of your abounding love and are truly grateful for it.
Monday, September 19, 2011
My Last Night on the Dream
Leaving the Dream was incredibly sad for me. The girls I work with are my sisters. We have shared many laughs, joys, tears, and memories. We came from all over the world and quickly became a family! I miss you Camp Carnival Dream Team!!!
My Team on the dance floor
We get a little nutty after dealing with all the kids
Canadian ... enough said (haha love you Heather)
Setting up for Kids Dinner
Boy do I miss these girls
In the words of Miss Lidiya ... "So Nice!"
Besides my family, I will miss sunrises and sunsets across the horizon. Pictures do not even begin to do the beautiful view justice. It is absolutely breathtaking and peaceful! I will miss those subtle, quite moments!
Mattia from Malta ... This little boy melted all of our hearts in camp.
Miss Nora from Peru
Got pretty to take some pictures
One of my favorite Philippinas ... Owen!
Wendy from New Zealand ... talk about an amazing woman ... she is one of the best!
Doing some dancing with Andrea
Go Own! Go Owen!
Some of my sisters at The Song, listening to the Latin Trio
Robert from the Latin Trio! This man holds a special place in my heart!
Cave Tubing
For Joleen's birthday, the three of us decided to go cave tubing in Belize. While getting up that early after working till midnight was no fun, the tour was absolutely amazing! I love these girls! We had such a blast!!
On the bus ... heading up to the caves
Thats right ... we're going in the jungle
Getting all geared up ... helmet, light, lifejacket
Ready to go!
Got our tubes ...
and into the water ... the cold water ...
Tour Guide Miguel
It was quite the walk to the caves ...
Just behind us is where we enter the cave
GORGEOUS!!!!
Getting ready to go!
Jo is pretty excited!
Bottoms up! Bottoms UP!
in the water ...
and on our way
thumbs up dude!
Breath-taking!
See the black spot ... that is a group of bats ... yes bats!
and more bats
The light at the end of the tunnel .... or cave
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